Fuel for Joy

My grandfather died the other day. He was 95 and lived a full long life. The last time I was in California I preached in the church that I grew up in. Knowing that my grandfather was getting to the point that it was difficult to move around I did not expect to see him. But he made it. He sat through that service and looked proud like only grandparents can look. After the service we went to my parents place where we celebrated my daughter’s first birthday, my niece’s third birthday, and my grandfather’s ninety-fifth. I sat down and talked to him and it was good. When we left California I told my wife, “I think that may be the last time I ever see the old man.”… it was, and I pray to my God that the memory of that moment never leaves me, it has already been my fuel for joy in moments of despair. My son had surgery the other day. There we were going to a specialist for a consultant and next thing I knew we were scheduled to have him put under and on a table. I cannot lie, I was scared. Then I told people. I told the leadership in the church. I told friends here in town. I told people we needed prayers, and thoughts, and comfort. And people prayed for us, and told us they were thinking about us. Many people told me, “If you need anything, and I do mean anything, let me know.”… and they were serious, and I felt better because I knew we were loved, and I pray to my God the memory of that moment never leaves me, it has already been my fuel for joy in moments of despair. My son started riding a bike the other day. Two wheels without training wheels. He never thought he could do it at first, but I stayed behind him running in that strange bent over way to make sure I was holding onto him without running into the bike. I would let go and he would go a couple of feet before getting scared and I would get him again. Then one time I let go and he was off, he was riding a bike, “Look mommy, look daddy!!!” he said with the kind of excitement only someone learning to ride a bike can understand… but I looked on in another way, with only the kind of pride a parent watching a child grow up can understand, and I pray to my God that memory of that moment never leaves me, it has already been my fuel for joy in moments of despair. Last night my daughter cried out in her crib. I went and picked her up and laid down with her on a bed we have in her room. She cuddled up to me and buried her little head in my neck and said softly, “dada.” Soon she was sleeping on my chest, but knowing enough of the world to know that moments like these will not last for long I stayed there for sometime and soaked her in. When I set her down I took the puppy outside. There in the middle of my backyard I knew I had to take a moment to thank God, because I simply felt overwhelmed with gratitude. I looked up above me into the night sky and found that the moon was directly over me, and through my trick of the atmosphere it formed a halo of light that circled the sky over me. There I stood in a stunned silence expecting to thank God, and yet overwhelmed with the light show I got to encounter. For some time I stood there in the chill of the night staring up, if a neighbor was watching one of them must have said, “It finally happened, the Presbyterian minister has gone crazy.” And maybe I was crazy, crazy with amazement at the beauty of it all, crazy with gratitude, crazy with hope because I took it as a good omen, and I started praying for people who needed prayer. It was a holy moment, and for a second I wondered if God would show up next to me… God never did, at least not in person, but I pray to my God the memory of that moment never leaves me, it will be my fuel for joy in moments of despair. What is your fuel for joy in moments of despair? All around us there is reason for joy. The cynic would point out that there is also reason for misery, but I would counter there are only reasons to have people who offer fuel for joy so that joy abounds. To those who are hurting and in need, we must become their fuel for joy! God offers a world so full of beauty, a life filled with surprise, and moments of inspiration to each of us with the express intent that we in turn offer the world what God has given us, joy! Riding the wave of the Holy Spirit, Garrett

God Makes You Beautiful

If I can tell you one thing for this New Year, one thing that I hope you will remember, one thing that can give you the hope that we all need as days go on, one thing that is absolutely true of you and true of God, it is that God will make you beautiful. It is true. That is how God works. God makes you beautiful. Why? We could call it love, we could call it grace, or any other number of other words that are incredibly hard to define. Or we could not worry about why, and simply smile that it is mysteriously true. God is making you beautiful, even as you read this. Now I do not mean beautiful in the way the world thinks of beauty. You may or may not be a stunner when looking in the mirror. People magazine will probably not be naming you most beautiful person of 2013 (however if that happens I want you to remember reading this). What I do mean by beautiful is you are made in God’s image. Again that does not necessarily mean you look like God, but it means that you have some spark of divinity within you. That spark of the divine, whether you can feel it or not, whether you can see it or not, whether you have any idea it is there or not, is there, and that spark is sublime. It means that all the ways that you try to define yourself, or the world tries to define you are null and void. You are not the worst parts of yourself, you are not the best parts of yourself, you are not your job, your mistakes, your regrets, your successes, your titles, you are a creature created by the Creator and you are being made more beautiful because that is what God does. God creates things and calls them good and makes them beautiful. And I know that you are not as good as you would like to be, and I know that because I am not as good as I would like to be. But do not forget that God is making you beautiful. I have seen a bumper sticker on some cars that reads, “Have patience with me, God isn’t done with me yet.” It is incredible that even bumper stickers can give some gospel truth. God is not done with you yet! What was it like for Peter? He never seemed to get Jesus. He was called “Satan.” He denied Jesus. It would be easy to think Peter would simply fade away. But there he was on Pentecost preaching… who would have guessed? Perhaps the God who makes all people beautiful. There is an ancient story about Peter trying to escape Rome during some of the Roman persecutions. As he was on a road leaving that ancient city of empire he met Jesus on the road and said, “Lord where are you going? They are persecuting us in Rome!” Jesus responded, “I go to Rome to be crucified again.” As the story goes, Peter followed Jesus into Rome and was crucified. It is a beautiful story about a beautiful person who was made beautiful by God and lived in a way that he could never have lived on his own. Please note that I am not saying death awaits you, but then again maybe I am. Perhaps to be made beautiful by God the person you think you are, or want to be, or others tell you are has to die. We die to ourselves to be made beautiful by God. This New Year has that in store for you. The God who makes all things beautiful is making you beautiful. What a miracle you are.